Not Happening
Nov. 18th, 2008 10:23 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
exhilarationSo I dyed my hair last night. Washed it. Went to bed with wet hair (towel on my pillow of course) and got up this morning. Put on a good playlist. Ate a decent breakfast. Did some stuff. Went down the block to the other house to check things out. Came back here. Looked in the mirror.
I don't think I can do this... have brown hair, I mean. I just don't look like myself. I mean, I went to bed with my hair wet so it dried curly. I have... curly brown hair. *shudders* The dye job itself isn't so bad - it has a sort of translucent quality, kind of like I thought it would, since my hair is, essentially, platinum under all the color. It's like a slightly plum-toned dark brown, darker at the roots of course, but...
I think I need to go pick up a box of black dye. Black dye is insidious, but it also covers a multitude of errors.
I do not feel very badass with my hair this way.
I look very ordinary. I do not want to look ordinary. I spend a lot of time and effort making sure I do not look ordinary.
And yes, I am aware that I am disproportionately upset given the lack of overall importance of the color of my hair -
BUT IT'S MY HAIR! IT IS IMPORTANT, DAMNIT!
I do not wish to be seen with such hair.
Several years ago, when I was living with my mom, I had dyed my hair black and then not touched it for about six months, and rarely straightened it. I was stressed, and busy, and fairly miserable, and didn't have the time or the desire to do anything with my hair. So it was half black and half brown. And even THAT looked better than it looks now.
I had no idea my hair could upset me this much! I've bleached it (before I knew what I was doing) and it turned yellow. I could handle that. I dyed my bleached yellow hair purple, which faded to pond scum green. I could handle that. Once I dyed it flame red, but it faded to pumpkin orange. I was not phased.
"No unnatural colors" didn't have to mean "go back to looking like I'm fourteen!"
I'm dying it black tomorrow.
I don't think I can do this... have brown hair, I mean. I just don't look like myself. I mean, I went to bed with my hair wet so it dried curly. I have... curly brown hair. *shudders* The dye job itself isn't so bad - it has a sort of translucent quality, kind of like I thought it would, since my hair is, essentially, platinum under all the color. It's like a slightly plum-toned dark brown, darker at the roots of course, but...
I think I need to go pick up a box of black dye. Black dye is insidious, but it also covers a multitude of errors.
I do not feel very badass with my hair this way.
I look very ordinary. I do not want to look ordinary. I spend a lot of time and effort making sure I do not look ordinary.
And yes, I am aware that I am disproportionately upset given the lack of overall importance of the color of my hair -
BUT IT'S MY HAIR! IT IS IMPORTANT, DAMNIT!
I do not wish to be seen with such hair.
Several years ago, when I was living with my mom, I had dyed my hair black and then not touched it for about six months, and rarely straightened it. I was stressed, and busy, and fairly miserable, and didn't have the time or the desire to do anything with my hair. So it was half black and half brown. And even THAT looked better than it looks now.
I had no idea my hair could upset me this much! I've bleached it (before I knew what I was doing) and it turned yellow. I could handle that. I dyed my bleached yellow hair purple, which faded to pond scum green. I could handle that. Once I dyed it flame red, but it faded to pumpkin orange. I was not phased.
"No unnatural colors" didn't have to mean "go back to looking like I'm fourteen!"
I'm dying it black tomorrow.
