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[exhilaration]

I got A Phone Call.

Well, lemme back up - Bevan didn't come to work today. Sometimes that happens - he oversleeps or something, and I've been known to go to his house and wake him up and then he comes in late. Well being that I'm furious with him, well, I'm not doing that, so I didn't. But then I got kind of alarmed as the shift went on, cause, if he slept in, he would've woken up by at least noon - right? So I called his phone but he didn't answer. Then I called his phone a few more times.

And then I got A Phone Call.

From his dad. Calling me on Bevan's phone.

To tell me Bevan was in a car accident and he's in the hospital. Not, he was in a car accident and bumped his head and is getting checked over in the ER. No. He's in surgery. So I wanted to go right to the hospital but his dad told me not to because he'd be in surgery for hours and then wouldn't be awake for a while -

Meaning... he will be awake eventually - right?

RIGHT?

I don't really know what happened - I don't know how the accident happened and I don't really know how badly he's hurt except that the worst of it is all to his head - and I know that's really bad.

I'm waiting for someone to tell me I'm overreacting and that everything is going to be fine, that it sounded all dramatic on the phone but really it's not that big of a thing but - it is. This is really serious - and I feel like it's not hitting me seriously enough. I don't know what to feel really.

I want to go to the hospital right now - but it makes sense not to go there if I can't even see him.

Now would be a good time to pray, if I believed in prayer, but I don't. I'd rest a lot easier if I could believe that Someone heard my pleas and was on my side. But I don't.

So I'm just stuck here.

Scared shitless.

Waiting for Another Phonecall.

Edit: Very grey phonecall essentially saying nothing has changed. I'm going batshit. I think I'm better off going batshit there than here, so I'm leaving. Trying not to freak out is kind of impossible right now. But thanks for the hugs and thoughts and prayers. I'm so scared.

Comments

[yoursetcetera.livejournal.com]

I wish I could say I've got him in my prayers for you, but I also do not pray. And sometimes typing *hug* just doesn't cut it, but over the internet it's all I can do.

*hug*

I hope everything turns out alright. I really, really do.

[lara-everlong.livejournal.com]

thank you

[ithildyn.livejournal.com]

I know it's pretty much impossible not to freak out, but remember his dad is probably freaking and how he's feeling came out in his call to you.

While it might not make sense to go the hospital, it might make you feel better to be there and to find out exactly what's going on so you don't imagine the worst.

I hope he'll be okay [HUGS]

[lara-everlong.livejournal.com]

thank you. I am going to the hospital now.

[poemsandsorrow.livejournal.com]

Anything I could say feels inadequate. I just truly hope and pray that he's okay. He's in my prayers tonight. (hugs)

[ivy-poet.livejournal.com]

Ditto.

Take care of yourself, so you don't make yourself sick with worry.

*hugs*

[lara-everlong.livejournal.com]

thank you. I am trying to. I just don't know what to do.

[lara-everlong.livejournal.com]

thank you.