Writer's Block: Bye bye life!

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Lj, what are you implying here? First you're asking me if I've ever nearly died and now you're asking me HOW I want to die?

Well. You want my real answer? It's kind of disturbing, but it's 100% true.

I will probably die from an accidental overdose.

I'm pretty okay with that, being that every time I've overdosed I really either wasn't even conscious or was but had no idea what was going on. So when you read about what happens to someone when they die this way, yes, it sounds horrible, but just think of how that person was totally unaware of what was happening with their body and that's really not a bad thing.

Picking out some other, more preferred method of death is a bit more than I care to think about right now. Besides, I'd rather choose WHEN I'm going to die than HOW. I mean I'd rather die horribly fifty years from now than peacefully tomorrow!

Comments

[ivy-poet.livejournal.com]

Okay yea, LJ is being creepy.

[zeegeek.livejournal.com]

Okay, yeah I agree it is a little creeapy and a little morbid, but hey, I can be morbid if I want right?

So initally, yeah your comment kind freaks me out, and gets the whole "uggh I wish nobody died that way" response. But then I got to thinking, I even voted to allow that to happen, you know physitian assised suicide. Which is kinda the same ting in my book. And I don't feel that is wrong at all. I'd even do it depending on the circumstances, but I'd rather not be in that sitiation to begin with.

Personally, I'd like to happy. And failing that, clueless. The issue I have is that given some of my hobbies, I. May be happy up until a second or two before hand but entirly terrified just before impact.

I'd like to live a long time, but I'm not really looking forward to the getting old part. So what then? I don't know, but I think I need to get to work on that anti aging device. *grin*

Also, I certainly hope you don't leave any sooner than you would otherwise be destined to, the world would be a lot worse place without you.

[lara-everlong.livejournal.com]

yeahhh I know it comes across initially as disturbing but it's something I've given a whole lot of thought to out of necessity. I mean they don't let you take certain drugs unless you periodically sign something stating you understand the statistical probability of them eventually causing YOUR DEATH. I mean even if you do take the greatest care to follow everything exactly perfect, we're human and therefor make mistakes. It happens and it happens EASILY, think how many famous people have died that way - and we only hear about it cause they're famous.

People campaign so hard to get these drugs outlawed because they've lost people to overdosing. BUT without them, um, I would not have a very nice life. So I'll gladly take quality over quantity and hope that my incessant bad luck with small things continues to feed the karma of good luck with big things.

That and, the reason I didn't answer that other Lj question about near death experiences is that while I've had some, I don't have much to say because barely remember anything. And what I do remember isn't being scared, it's just being sort of confused. Doesn't make for a very good story BUT it does kind of alter your perception of dying a bit.

Your scary hobbies seem like a total blast and absolutely worth the risk. And... maybe by the time we're old, being old won't be so bad. I mean the baby boomers are getting old now, and they have a tendency to get what the demand so perhaps we will be taking for granted everything they will have changed for us by then. I mean or you could work on growing clones of yourself and doing a brain transplant or something, that would probably work too :)

Destiny is crap, if our fates are already laid out for us what's the point of ANYTHING, really? I mean kinda takes away any sense of accomplishment you might have in your successes to know that it was supposed to happen anyway. And if it's NOT supposed to happen, what, do you spend your life wasting your time?

Are you on LJ at work???

Lol

[zeegeek.livejournal.com]

RE: overdosing - I gues it kinda depends, I mean overdosing accidentally because one is using them recreationaly, well thats one thing. As is if one intentionally overdoses, that is a different matter. I haddn't concidered that some drugs would have such a restrictive dosing that it would be possible to accidently overdose on them without trying. But I also don't group the drugs that slowly kill you due to damaging random organs or something with an overdose death. Because really it's not the drugs that kill you, because at some point once you have ruined a liver or something, it doesn't matter if you stop the drugs then, your liver will still kill you without the drugs.

But I also very much agree with the quality over quantity argument. Who wants to live forever if they are going to be miserable the entire time. But it kinda works on a sliding scale too. I mean if I get diabetic or something and have to give up sweets and alcohol or something, or end up dead really young, well I think I'd give up the bad stuff. It's like how much benefit from how much sacrafice argument.

Oh yeah, they are a blast, up until the 1 second after you realize you just made a big mistake. I remember about 5 or 6 years ago, I was out riding at night, MrWho was in the passengers seat, and we were moving along pretty quick, like 50mph or so. And I entirely didn't see a 4 foot drop off. Shot off the top of it and went - Aaaa FUCK! and just had to hope that when the front wheels hit the ground they would roll rather than hit a dip and stop, because if they didn't we would have pancaked over forward. One of the longest second of my life.

And yeah, we can hope that they get all the fixes to our bodies worked out before we become all old fogies.

RE: destiny - I don't belive in a strict destiny. I do think there are somethings that will happen to us unless we take direct actions to change the course. So yeah I feel there is quite a bit we can change about our destiny, but we have to be proactive about changing them and not just have a laissez-faire attitude towards it.

RE: LJ and work - Well umm kinda *blush*. Really I get email notifications of a lot of LJ things that I just glance at my phone to read. Because like it's impossible to stay completely on task at work 100% of the time. I mean after a while you need a 5 minute break just to reset the mind. So I read the stuff from LJ. The comments I wrote however, yeah that was me at my desk during lunch.

[lara-everlong.livejournal.com]

But I also don't group the drugs that slowly kill you due to damaging random organs or something with an overdose death.

It's the "safer," less regulated, less habit-forming, less likely to be abused drugs like percocet and vicoden that destroy your liver. Crazy, isn't it?

One of the longest second of my life.

Wow, glad you landed safely.

[zeegeek.livejournal.com]

Yeah, crazy. Oh, and I'm glad I landed safely too.