Hm.

[exhilaration]

So. I am lonely.

My boyfriend is in Korea. Um, still. He has to wait for a different Chinese visa until he can go back. In Korea you don't need a visa if you are a US citizen so, he's just chillin' there. With some VERY cool people. And enjoying his access to, you know... WORLD NEWS. Totally not surprised to hear that even though he never made a point to watch the news before... suddenly he wants to just because he can. I mean I feel the same way. I mean, China... kind of freaks me out that way.

Also I am shit at talking on the phone. He likes to talk on the phone. He always has. I've just always had a "don't call me, I won't pick up anyway" kind of policy, lol. Now I'm just like, ehhhhh.... I need to get better at this. FAST.

So anyway. I called my friend Cheryl in Philly and told her I'm home and asked her if she wanted to hang out for an afternoon or something. I mean we hung out every once in a while while I was at school last semester, so I figured... I'd give that a try. That's not too difficult, I mean, it's not as bad as calling someone and being like, so... how are you? Yeah, that's good. Ummmm. Well do you want to do something? Oh I don't know whatever you want to do. Blah blah blah. I mean she's a really busy person so it was hard to find time to hang out last semester. And now, well, she's a grad student so she's teaching summer classes right now, so OF COURSE she is very busy. But on the phone she was like, damn, this is crazy, I need a vacation! And I was like, oh you mean like go down the shore or something? And she was like, yeah, just something to relax before the fall semester starts, I am really going nuts here, I can't believe I thought this was a good idea, blah blah blah. And I was like... um, I live at the shore. Come visit when the semester ends. There ya go, that is a FREE vacation, can't beat that right?

And she was like, oh yeah, I forgot you live there. And I was like, yeah well I'm leaving soon, but come visit while I'm still here. You can... I dunno, sit on the beach and do nothing or something. And she was like, omg that sounds like heaven, I would love to, are you sure you don't mind?

And I was like... okay I just spent the summer in some of the most densely populated places ON THE ENTIRE PLANET. Please, don't even worry about it.

So... I will have the company of Cheryl for a few days next week. Which is kind of... eh, I mean I don't really know Cheryl all that well, it's just that I've known her for a long time. I dunno. It'll be fun I'm sure. Better than doing nothing.

Comments

[ivy-poet.livejournal.com]

If I stopped to think about it, I'd be lonely too. I generally only have very close friends and those are hard to come by...and with life being what it is, most of them moved away. I swear, a lot of the time now I wouldn't see a soul if it weren't for Remi and the roommate.

I'm really, really glad you called Cheryl. Sounds like you're doing her as much of a favour as she's doing you :)

And I would totally hang out with you if you were here :p

[lara-everlong.livejournal.com]

favour

You're so British :)

And I'm starting to realize that this is what happens when you grow up. You don't have time for those "incidental" friends any more. And then suddenly you notice that you don't have a social crowd any more. You have a few close friends who are more than likely all over the place.

[ivy-poet.livejournal.com]

Re: favour - yup and that damn spellchecker bugs me about it every time.

I remember when myspace was in (shut up, I'm old) and the more I friended ppl I knew in high school, the more I remembered WHY we'd mutually let the friendship fizzle after HS in the first place.

[lara-everlong.livejournal.com]

and... this is why I don't have a facebook

[zeegeek.livejournal.com]

Well yeah, but facebook isn't to rekindle friendships, it's a way to spy on people you kinda sorta want to keep track of, without actually having to call them up on the phone. I mean I'm "friends" with a bunch of people I went to HS with, and knew, reasonably friendly with, and would occupationally talk to. And well, that's about all I do with them on facebook. Also, same with some of the people I go skiing with. I ski with them because we have about the same abilities and we like the same terrain, but we aren't really friends. So we coordinate skiing trip with them on FB too. We ignore each other during the summer.

[zeegeek.livejournal.com]

I don't care for talking on the phone, but it's not like a dislike either. But then again I am kinda like the typical guy in that I only talk on the phone to like coordinate stuff, and don't really do the chit chat stuff. Stuff like "awkard pauses" always seem to happen.

Also I understand the lonelyness stuff. I mean I kinda feel that way frequently because it's not like I actually do have a lot of friends or anything. I think what helps me out a lot is that I work. I work with a lot of people and get a lot of human interaction there, so when I come home and am by myself, it's not such a bad thing, because I just spent half the day thinking, "I just want to get away from some of these people". That and it's one of the reasons I go racing and skiing, it just gets me around and interacting with people, in like a friendly manner.

Oh and I agree with Ivy, I'd totally hang out with you if you were here too (but you already knew that :)

And yeah, something is always better than nothing.

[lara-everlong.livejournal.com]

Yes well, that is why I kept working even though I didn't actually like my job. If I didn't... I'd just never see anyone. Which I do not like at all. I can't wait for school to start.

[zeegeek.livejournal.com]

YAY! school!