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The REAL Update
Nov. 14th, 2008 11:59 pm(As opposed to the drunken, non-sensical one from last night!)
So. I've written a companion story to the first story I wrote, so maybe I will be doing NaNo after all, and just make it a collection of short stories - I certainly have the time to do it, anyway >.<
Erica and I drank two bottles of wine the other night - then I felt the need to update my LJ. I deleted that entry. B and I drank a couple six-packs last night and, lo and behold, I felt the need to update my LJ then too. I deleted that one as well. Usually I don't drink like this, I swear! But I'm bored, and I can't go anywhere. Part of the reason I just don't drink much is cause if I'm drunk (as opposed to buzzed) I really can't walk. Well - I can't walk right now anyway. So I figured I might as well.
So... I've been hungover the past few mornings. Yeah. Fun times. I am SOOOO responsible. Yeah right. Parents go away and the kids eat chocolate cake for breakfast is more like it. Responsible is not my middle name.
I wasn't going to update anyway because I really don't have anything worth saying. I've been thinking about a lot of shit recently, you know, since I've been home doing NOTHING, but none of it is anything I want to share. It all just makes me angry, and I'm really not in the mood to be angry right now.
I was listening to my voice posts (and reading all my entries) earlier and I made an observation about the way I speak: I only sound like I'm from Central PA when I've been home by myself all day. The more I'm around other people the more Philly I sound. So I guess I sound totally Central Pennsylvanian right now, since I've been home by myself for... too many days.
Bevan and I cuddled on the couch last night. I know this doesn't sound like such a big deal but to me it really is. It's... a really nice thing to, for once, feel like more than just an interesting person or a convenient friend or whatever, and more like someone who's actually deserving of... comfort. I don't know how else to explain it. I am really not the kind of person who is a "cuddler," you know, who snuggles up to all their friends. I see other people do it - I know other people can be like that, but I'm not. I know you don't even have to be particularly close to someone to cuddle up with them - but you DO both have to be comfortable with it. And I'm usually not, but... this time it was really nice.
We're still not totally cool with each other. Well, I don't know what's going on in his head, but my head can't forget what happened after the wedding. The whole time I was thinking this is nice the other part of me was going yeah, but, remember....
So. I've written a companion story to the first story I wrote, so maybe I will be doing NaNo after all, and just make it a collection of short stories - I certainly have the time to do it, anyway >.<
Erica and I drank two bottles of wine the other night - then I felt the need to update my LJ. I deleted that entry. B and I drank a couple six-packs last night and, lo and behold, I felt the need to update my LJ then too. I deleted that one as well. Usually I don't drink like this, I swear! But I'm bored, and I can't go anywhere. Part of the reason I just don't drink much is cause if I'm drunk (as opposed to buzzed) I really can't walk. Well - I can't walk right now anyway. So I figured I might as well.
So... I've been hungover the past few mornings. Yeah. Fun times. I am SOOOO responsible. Yeah right. Parents go away and the kids eat chocolate cake for breakfast is more like it. Responsible is not my middle name.
I wasn't going to update anyway because I really don't have anything worth saying. I've been thinking about a lot of shit recently, you know, since I've been home doing NOTHING, but none of it is anything I want to share. It all just makes me angry, and I'm really not in the mood to be angry right now.
I was listening to my voice posts (and reading all my entries) earlier and I made an observation about the way I speak: I only sound like I'm from Central PA when I've been home by myself all day. The more I'm around other people the more Philly I sound. So I guess I sound totally Central Pennsylvanian right now, since I've been home by myself for... too many days.
Bevan and I cuddled on the couch last night. I know this doesn't sound like such a big deal but to me it really is. It's... a really nice thing to, for once, feel like more than just an interesting person or a convenient friend or whatever, and more like someone who's actually deserving of... comfort. I don't know how else to explain it. I am really not the kind of person who is a "cuddler," you know, who snuggles up to all their friends. I see other people do it - I know other people can be like that, but I'm not. I know you don't even have to be particularly close to someone to cuddle up with them - but you DO both have to be comfortable with it. And I'm usually not, but... this time it was really nice.
We're still not totally cool with each other. Well, I don't know what's going on in his head, but my head can't forget what happened after the wedding. The whole time I was thinking this is nice the other part of me was going yeah, but, remember....
