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Spring Break FTW
Mar. 9th, 2011 08:10 pmWell, took all my midterms last week. All FIVE of them.
Five classes is killing me, seriously. This was not wise. And now I feel like I've gotten so hyped up in my whole "omg can't do this" that... there is just no WAY I can do this.
It's spring break. I don't have anything I need to be doing for school over spring break. So I'm trying to just relax for now.
Bevan looks at some things so totally differently than I do and this has always made me feel like we're really good together. Like we compliment each other or whatever.
For example, my complete inability to manage my time: my fault. Inability to get off my ass and leave the apartment even when I don't want to: also my fault. Inability to remain awake and/or attentive in class or while trying to complete things for my class due to the fact that I'm exhausted: NOT my fault. If the energy isn't there, then it's just not there. I can't just create more out of thin air. If I'm exhausted, of COURSE things are going to keep getting fucked up. And of course I'm exhausted.
I think I'm just going to resign myself to some bad grades this semester. I mean, ideally I'd drop my sound class. Only because it's right after therapy and if I can GET to class I can't seem to stay AWAKE in class, and I've already fucked up several small tests because I just couldn't focus on what I was doing right then. Without that class, I can't take any classes having to do with hearing. Ok, fine. I won't take those next semester (meaning spring). There's other stuff I could start with instead, and re-take this one too.
But I've really backed myself into a corner here because I CAN'T drop any classes. Technically I'm only getting 12 credits this semester, since my Spanish class is a re-take. I can't have those credits twice. But I don't want to drop that class - I'm doing fine in it, I can skip it pretty much as much as I want to as long as I understand I don't get credit for missing discussions and stuff (although there is a policy that extra work can be done to make up partial credit for that kind of thing) and I don't want to have to re-take it later, because then I'll have to take another class along with it to get my certificate.
So if I drop any OTHER of my classes, well... then I'm at 9 credits, and that's part-time, so I'd lose my school insurance, and I can't do THAT.
So I'm not going to do very well this semester. And that's kind of that, and it sucks to try your hardest and still fuck things up.
( Livin' it up spring break style )
So, yeah. That's pretty much what I've been doing with my break. I've been thinking a ton of other stuff, but, I dunno. I can't seem to get any of it out in writing, so, that will have to wait.
Five classes is killing me, seriously. This was not wise. And now I feel like I've gotten so hyped up in my whole "omg can't do this" that... there is just no WAY I can do this.
It's spring break. I don't have anything I need to be doing for school over spring break. So I'm trying to just relax for now.
Bevan looks at some things so totally differently than I do and this has always made me feel like we're really good together. Like we compliment each other or whatever.
For example, my complete inability to manage my time: my fault. Inability to get off my ass and leave the apartment even when I don't want to: also my fault. Inability to remain awake and/or attentive in class or while trying to complete things for my class due to the fact that I'm exhausted: NOT my fault. If the energy isn't there, then it's just not there. I can't just create more out of thin air. If I'm exhausted, of COURSE things are going to keep getting fucked up. And of course I'm exhausted.
I think I'm just going to resign myself to some bad grades this semester. I mean, ideally I'd drop my sound class. Only because it's right after therapy and if I can GET to class I can't seem to stay AWAKE in class, and I've already fucked up several small tests because I just couldn't focus on what I was doing right then. Without that class, I can't take any classes having to do with hearing. Ok, fine. I won't take those next semester (meaning spring). There's other stuff I could start with instead, and re-take this one too.
But I've really backed myself into a corner here because I CAN'T drop any classes. Technically I'm only getting 12 credits this semester, since my Spanish class is a re-take. I can't have those credits twice. But I don't want to drop that class - I'm doing fine in it, I can skip it pretty much as much as I want to as long as I understand I don't get credit for missing discussions and stuff (although there is a policy that extra work can be done to make up partial credit for that kind of thing) and I don't want to have to re-take it later, because then I'll have to take another class along with it to get my certificate.
So if I drop any OTHER of my classes, well... then I'm at 9 credits, and that's part-time, so I'd lose my school insurance, and I can't do THAT.
So I'm not going to do very well this semester. And that's kind of that, and it sucks to try your hardest and still fuck things up.
( Livin' it up spring break style )
So, yeah. That's pretty much what I've been doing with my break. I've been thinking a ton of other stuff, but, I dunno. I can't seem to get any of it out in writing, so, that will have to wait.
