So, Who Does Have It Easier, Anyway?

[exhilaration]

shidoikarji26 posted this on his LJ showing off all the drama that ensued after the question "who has it easier, men or women?" was used for the LJ writer's block thingy.

And I went to answer this in my head, thinking first, "well, I don't feel like I have a particularly hard time being a woman, I mean, I don't feel I'm missing out on any opportunities in life or anything-" only to mentally interrupt myself to say "ah, well, then there is the fact that I'm a woman who doesn't really feel like a woman. Maybe I, personally, would have it easier being a male."

Sometimes I don't trust the things that pop into my head, but it's not the first time I've entertained this notion - I don't feel very female. I understand that I am. I just don't really feel like it, and, try as I might, that's about the best I can explain it.

I actually thought I was going to write this big entry about gender and how I feel about myself, but, honestly, I don't have all that much to say. Just what I've already said a few times before in this journal, that I don't really feel female and that I've always wondered if I'd have it easier as a guy.

This may be sorta out of the ordinary but the world's a big place and I'm sure I'm not the only one who feels this same thing, not by far. I just sometimes wish I understood myself a little better.