Just Say No

[exhilaration]

No school for me in the fall, that is. It's just not happening. I registered for those classes because I really just had no clue what kind of shape I'd be in by this point and had the idea that maybe I'd really appreciate being out of the house and having something other than my own medical issues to focus on, and getting to see people and stuff too. Well, for the most part I still want those things. And I think that if school was the only thing I needed to do and the only place I needed to be, well, I might be able to do it. Bit the fact is, there are other places I'll have to be too. Right now my PT comes to my house, but eventually (like soon) I will have to actually go there, and you know, just that will about wear me out I think. And that's normal, right? I mean for two and a half months I've been pretty much either in bed, or out of bed but doing very, very little in terms of movement. So, it will take a little while to build up enough stamina to do all the things I want to do - right?

I am doing pretty well - I am feeling a lot better, I mean, I did feel well enough to just go to town on some karaoke there. A little while ago zeegeek asked me if I'd been singing anything, because I guess in the past I've said it feels good to sing. And I was kind of like, are you kidding? I feel too much like shit to sing. Like it was to the point where taking a deep enough breath to hit a note clearly would have been too much movement for me to tolerate. And now, well, I did get to the movie theatre to see Harry. Not on the bus, though, actually I went in a car, but that still means I had to get IN the car and then out of it again, and then repeat the whole thing to get home again, and it didn't kill me, so, I'm doing pretty good here.

So, I did take a class online this summer. It was a very easy class and I didn't get credit for it, but at least it gave me something to do, and I don't have to worry about fitting a no-credit class into my schedule sometime in the future. So because that wasn't a complete failure, I consider that the go-ahead to take online classes this fall. I said before that there isn't anything offered this fall online that I need, and that's still true, but I still want the credits, because I just want things to be easy for me with school, is what it comes down to. I had a very hard time with my classes last spring, and I just don't want to do anything hard anymore, I've had enough. So I don't want to try to fit my 24 credits into spring and summer, cause I'll be doing therapy then too and therapy takes priority over school.

And, yeah. I feel like I should have more to say, and I kind of do, but I don't want to go into it all right now.

Comments

[zeegeek.livejournal.com]

Subject line reminds me on Nancy Reagan.... Did your school have "Just Say No (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Just_Say_No#Efforts_in_the_United_States_and_abroad)" clubs as well?

Sorry that in person classes won't work out this semester but I hope you find one online that fits your liking :) And I'm glad to hear you are continuing to feel better.

[lara-everlong.livejournal.com]

I found an online class that does fit my liking, I THINK

I'm taking the class about the bible, because 1) I know it will be interesting and 2) I have already completed the required reading several times over. Regardless of how I feel about religion, I've always found the actual text to be very interesting and just like reading novels under my desk in reading class while the teacher was talking about whatever, I would totally read the bible in church in my lap while the pastor was talking about whatever. The prophets are more of a philosophical read but the first books of the old testament are more historical records and are very fascinating, have you read much (or any) of the bible yourself?

I also registered (just recently, as opposed to ilke last month) for a topics class in American Studies, cause the title sounded interesting, but American Studies classes are usually those BS classes where you read a bunch of articles explaining other people's opinions of things and then write a reaction or have a class discussion. But this class has online discussions, which I wonder if I'd actually do BETTER in (because class discussions often send me into lala land and then I lose all credit for them cause I wasn't participating) and also requires in-person meetings at certain points in the semester, and while I know I can't get to class twice a week, I think ONCE every FEW weeks would be really nice.

[zeegeek.livejournal.com]

I have not read much of the bible myself no. I don't even have a copy of it. My mom had an ancient water damaged King James version when I was growing up that I had no interest in touching. I know my brother has one, but I also know he got it as a gift when he got confirmed. I never did. I am familiar with a lot of the gospel readings just from church, but haven't really been interested in reading it myself really. It's way down on the buck list. Might really enjoy it if I ever do though. Glad you found that class.

Ah, American studies classes. When I was looking through the course catalog there I saw that they had OLL classes with some in person sessions and didn't know if you had looked into them as possibilities or not. I'm betting you can probably handle them just fine :) Are the online discussions like more of a forum post type thing? or do you have to keep up on like a chat basis? Is it one on one with you and the prof or is it like everyone in the class discusses?

[yasonablack.livejournal.com]

Yay for feeling better! In my experience, it's totally normal to be worn out after getting to PT, doing PT, and then getting home from PT. The majority of days I skipped school were almost all PT days and I'm sure my therapy was much lighter than yours is. I hear it's a different thing for people whose only have one temporary issue. Apparently those asses feel better after it. ;)

Karaoke sounds like fun. Did you sing anything or just soak it all in?

[lara-everlong.livejournal.com]

Thanks, I am really relieved I am starting to feel better, I think part of me was afraid I wouldn't. I know it's normal to be worn out from PT, that's a big part of why I never finished high school. It was hard to balance THEN, and I was a minor then and had my parents there to have the final say for the most part. Now I'm a grown up and I don't even have to throw a tantrum when I don't WAAAANNNTTT to do something in order to get my way - I can just do what I want. So if I want to stay home all the time... I totally CAN, but see, grown up me knows I really SHOULDNT... and I think that might be the hardest part.

Oh, when I say I did karaoke, I meant in my living room. So yeah, I sang all kinds of things, but with no audience. Plus side being that I could hog the mic, downside being no applause XD

[zeegeek.livejournal.com]

*applause* *applause* *applesauce*