1. Just kidding, I really have no idea.
2. It's just that sometimes it feels so stupid not to want people to look at me.
3. After all, I look at everyone else - I am a people watcher.
4. I notice when people's socks match their outfits and stuff like that, but I also notice people's moods, when someone is nervous or distracted or irritated or amused or relaxed or focused or anything else.
5. Sometimes I feel like self-consciousness is related to self-obsession - after all, no matter what it feels like, it's NOT all about me, is it?
6. All these little things that concern me likely concern only me, so, logically, shouldn't I just chill out?
7. If emotions could be ruled by logic, though, an entire profession would be out of business.
8. Yeah, that.
9. I do get it, though, that my lack of trust in other people's good opinions can get annoying, irritating even, and definitely pushes people away.
10. Being reassured ten bazillion times is awfully nice, but it feels overly indulgent and I'm pretty sure eventually he's going to get sick of it. I don't thing this was such a big issue in any previous relationship I've been in, but, I don't know. Maybe I'm a different person now.
2. It's just that sometimes it feels so stupid not to want people to look at me.
3. After all, I look at everyone else - I am a people watcher.
4. I notice when people's socks match their outfits and stuff like that, but I also notice people's moods, when someone is nervous or distracted or irritated or amused or relaxed or focused or anything else.
5. Sometimes I feel like self-consciousness is related to self-obsession - after all, no matter what it feels like, it's NOT all about me, is it?
6. All these little things that concern me likely concern only me, so, logically, shouldn't I just chill out?
7. If emotions could be ruled by logic, though, an entire profession would be out of business.
8. Yeah, that.
9. I do get it, though, that my lack of trust in other people's good opinions can get annoying, irritating even, and definitely pushes people away.
10. Being reassured ten bazillion times is awfully nice, but it feels overly indulgent and I'm pretty sure eventually he's going to get sick of it. I don't thing this was such a big issue in any previous relationship I've been in, but, I don't know. Maybe I'm a different person now.